Lately, I have been trying to find my place at work. So many things have changed and I worked so hard for the purpose, clients, staff. I will be honest, I think while it is work... It is more like I am trying to find my place in life. I am a wife, a mother, student, intern, and full-time employee. And trying to be an adult sucks with all that going on! Even when we don’t want to be adults, we must.
I was recently feeling as if I had done something wrong, that I had failed as a wife, a mother, a supervisor and just all of it. Typically it is experience and dedication that take you places. I really thought giving my all would assist in the long run. It truly doesn’t matter anymore, does it? Of course my husband and child matter. But let’s be real here. It really sucks when you can’t do all you want with your family. I have given up so much to provide, be there, and fix things for so many others. It was not wasted time by any means. It just takes a toll on your mental and physical health.
While I am still really struggling with things, I was encouraged when I read 1 Chronicles 17. Dude named David decided he was going to build God a house. Being so taken over with this deep desire and love for God, David figured it would be cool to build a special place to put the ark of the covenant. I mean, hello?! Cool right?
Well, David was a tad wrong or just plain old, full-on friggin wrong! Doesn’t that resonate with some of us? Time after time, I do things out of an abundance of so much love and passion for people and as I am many times, WRONGO! And that kind of pisses me off. Anyway....
It was totally not the perfect will of God for David to build a house! God was like, “Yeah, so I was already planning on having your kid build that for me when I wanted it.. sooo.” David’s son, Solomon was the one who would build that in the future. It’s like watching something so beautiful be built and then saying “Right. That’s cool. But you forgot that it wasn’t even supposed to go there and it is now worth nothing. Have fun staring at your mistake every day!”
Something really cool happened here though....
God was not even mad at it! He didn’t get all angry, say mean things to make him feel like crap, make back-handed comments, or make him feel like a fool. God saw David’s heart through all of it. He saw that he was determined to do what he could to show his love for God. God saw that and He blessed David for that purity of heart. Pretty neat, right?
It is my cry to God that I am given the strength to continue getting up each morning for my husband and my son. That I obtain the wisdom and knowledge to fight the good fight. I am so weary as of late. But like David, I will prove my heart by the things I do, the way(s) I do them, and the intent of these things. In this, I know I am blessed.
1 Chronicles 17: 7-14 “Now then, tell my servant David, ‘This is what the LORD Almighty says: I took you from the pasture and from following the flock, to be ruler over my people Israel. I have been with you wherever you have gone, and I have cut off all your enemies from before you. Now I will make your name like the names of the greatest men of the earth. And I will provide a place for my people Israel and will plant them so that they can have a home of their own and no longer be disturbed. Wicked people will not oppress them anymore, as they did at the beginning and have done ever since the time I appointed leaders over my people Israel. I will also subdue all your enemies."
Thanks for stopping by.
Patti
I was recently feeling as if I had done something wrong, that I had failed as a wife, a mother, a supervisor and just all of it. Typically it is experience and dedication that take you places. I really thought giving my all would assist in the long run. It truly doesn’t matter anymore, does it? Of course my husband and child matter. But let’s be real here. It really sucks when you can’t do all you want with your family. I have given up so much to provide, be there, and fix things for so many others. It was not wasted time by any means. It just takes a toll on your mental and physical health.
While I am still really struggling with things, I was encouraged when I read 1 Chronicles 17. Dude named David decided he was going to build God a house. Being so taken over with this deep desire and love for God, David figured it would be cool to build a special place to put the ark of the covenant. I mean, hello?! Cool right?
Well, David was a tad wrong or just plain old, full-on friggin wrong! Doesn’t that resonate with some of us? Time after time, I do things out of an abundance of so much love and passion for people and as I am many times, WRONGO! And that kind of pisses me off. Anyway....
It was totally not the perfect will of God for David to build a house! God was like, “Yeah, so I was already planning on having your kid build that for me when I wanted it.. sooo.” David’s son, Solomon was the one who would build that in the future. It’s like watching something so beautiful be built and then saying “Right. That’s cool. But you forgot that it wasn’t even supposed to go there and it is now worth nothing. Have fun staring at your mistake every day!”
Something really cool happened here though....
God was not even mad at it! He didn’t get all angry, say mean things to make him feel like crap, make back-handed comments, or make him feel like a fool. God saw David’s heart through all of it. He saw that he was determined to do what he could to show his love for God. God saw that and He blessed David for that purity of heart. Pretty neat, right?
It is my cry to God that I am given the strength to continue getting up each morning for my husband and my son. That I obtain the wisdom and knowledge to fight the good fight. I am so weary as of late. But like David, I will prove my heart by the things I do, the way(s) I do them, and the intent of these things. In this, I know I am blessed.
1 Chronicles 17: 7-14 “Now then, tell my servant David, ‘This is what the LORD Almighty says: I took you from the pasture and from following the flock, to be ruler over my people Israel. I have been with you wherever you have gone, and I have cut off all your enemies from before you. Now I will make your name like the names of the greatest men of the earth. And I will provide a place for my people Israel and will plant them so that they can have a home of their own and no longer be disturbed. Wicked people will not oppress them anymore, as they did at the beginning and have done ever since the time I appointed leaders over my people Israel. I will also subdue all your enemies."
Thanks for stopping by.
Patti
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