Ordinary Christians

I don't know many things, I am not one to say that I can do more than the normal person. There are times when I want more material than spiritual...moreso than I'd like to admit at times. It's so crazy how you can set yourself up to fail.....but amazing because that is God's way of saying, "choose Me!", "I am the only thing you need!", "My love is sufficient!". So, you choose to follow and there seems to be a glow in you.....a brightness everyone can see......a smile that is no longer hidden......an emptiness that is overwhelmingly filled with love and hope. You are told to tread lightly and fight the good fight of faith. Not knowing what's in store that first fight seems to be so hard......you don't know what's going on, but you know that you must fight to keep your sanity and the trust you once had in Christ seems to lessen......you feel as if you failed somewhere along the way as your fights get harder to win. Then you take on more than you bargained for, but seemed like it could have been so easy in the beginning. You see the happiest of people at church and in your bible studies. Happy couples getting ready to get married....newlyweds that you are tired of seeing because you wish it were you.....and then you walk into a coffee shop hoping to escape and you see an old couple who know eachother like the back of their hands... you start to cry and pray for the feeling you feel to go away and try to focus on something simple. Knowing that the thoughts are always going to be in the back of your mind no matter what you do, you realize that you are driving yourself crazy and you need a break. Then you start to question yourself. Is this normal? I have to be insane! Why is this happening? What am I doing to myself? At the brink of insanity....you look at your bible and stare at it hoping some force of wind will open it to the right passage to encourage you so you don't feel too convicted for passing by it each morning and saying...."I just don't have the time." or " Tomorrow is another day." The thing is......this is such a common thing that I see in so many people ...... including myself. It's so easy to forget what you accepted. As Christians we have been allowed to witness the love of Christ and His sacrifice for that love deserves more than we will ever be able to give. We can however put our wants aside and focus on the only thing that matters......glorifying God and making sure we spread the love we were so graciously given. We are not promised a clean, fresh newly paved road in life......the only things we are promised are unconditional love we can never get from anyone or anywhere.......and eternal life with our Father in heaven. Isn't that worth anything and everything? Or are we just waiting for something better to come along? Like, a husband...or a wife...thinking that it will satisfy us or will it. You can be married and still be missing the one thing that means more than you will ever know. You can have millions of dollars and still be as miserable as you were when you had nothing. You will never be as satisfied with anything in your life....until you open your bible ask the questions, and realize that nothing matters aside from Christ. He shed His blood so we can live forever. Praise God for such an awesome love that we are allowed to experience! May all of you just live for today and stop living for tomorrow...or what might come. Forget about what we don't have...because He died for us! The joy of knowing that we will soon be joining our Father in heaven makes me want to go now. In my dreams and throughout my day I will continue to shout " COME SOON WE ARE WAITING JESUS!"