Trouble Sleeping?

Lately, I've had trouble sleeping. Many excuses come to mind and they could be very valid ones at that. Truth is, there's too much going on in my mind to concentrate on sleep. What's the next phase going to be like? How many trials do I have coming up this week? When will I feel as if I am in this WITH GOD instead of without?
I start to feel a conviction unlike one from the usual "sin" in need of repentance. Some days I can actually hear my heart cry out, "God, where are you?" Only to hear a voice whisper,"No child, where are you?" I ignore it and let the rest of the world make me calloused to the things that surround me.
I have looked everywhere for a solution. Here's what I have come up with: without starting with myself, there is no solution. Truth is, I am the source of my own problem. We all are.
In that case is it safe to state that I have not crucified myself unto Christ. I therefore do not believe He is sufficient for me. With this said, do I go on to say that I don't believe the unfailing Word that was left to instruct us? It has been a lingering thought in my mind. Do I go on as we all do and let our thoughts take captive of what we have faith in? If so, we are all fat, stupid, inadequate and lacking everything that society says we need to "make it".
I tried to get sleep earlier today from a strained, sleepless few days. Before I dozed off for about 5 minutes, I was reading Romans 6. Verse 18 shot out of the page as if I were wearing 3D glasses at the iMax Theater.

Romans 6:18 "and you, having been set free from sin, have become slaves of righteousness."

“Faith is rest, not toil.” - Horatius Bonar

Bonar is on point indeed! We allow Christ in the crevasses and figure we would tuck him away until we need him. When the toil reaches an unacceptable level. As Romans 6:18 states, we are "slaves to righteousness". If this is so, than wouldn't our faith in Christ in fact be rest? I have to take this to a level of answering every possible question. Any question left unanswered can make me feel like a "staggering buffoon" unwilling to seek out the answer to my my problem while I chug on the alcohol in my hand.

So, the problem that is apparent above can only have one solution. That I cling to Christ! Rest in Christ, in whom faith comes. Toil not in things unnecessary. Let Christ be the physician. Matthew 9:12; Mark 2:17.

"Jesus is a wise physician.
Skillful and exceeding kind;
Through hims sinners find remission,
And enjoy sweet peace of mind.
Moved with tenderest compassion,
He relieves the wounded heart;
And the richest consolation
His blest Spirit does impart.
This physician understandeth
All disorders of the soul;
And no payment he demandeth,
When he makes the wounded whole.
Come, ye souls, who now are sighing
Under guilt's distressing chains,
To the Saviour now be flying;
He will ease you of your pains.
What though bad is your condition,
And your wounds you can't endure?
He, the sinner's wise Physician,
Will effect a perfect cure."

-R. Burnham

Psalm 16:7-8 "I will praise the Lord who counsels me, even at night my conscience instructs me. I keep the Lord in my mind always, because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken."

Pressing on and "rewriting my face so others can see Christ in me"....