Grumpy Patti

I was in a grumpy mood for 2 days :( Unsure of why, but I took it out on my roommate. Being the great person she is.....it was looked over until it was too much to take in. Without snapping she told me that I was loved and there was no reason for me to feel otherwise or make anyone feel as if I didn't appreciate their efforts. It's so hard to explain the way you feel when you know you are wrong. You are stuck and people look at you like they want you to say something, but in your head....you're thinking....maybe if I look away this person will disappear and this conversation would have never happened. Yeah....wrong....instead you feel yourself shrinking and feeling convicted because you know you just sinned against your brother and/or sister. It's so hard to admit that you were wrong.....and though you will never completely admit you were wrong because that is just the way we are......you say sorry and really mean it, but give no explanation of why you are apologizing. In turn that leaves the person on the receiving end a little confused on top of feeling guilty because they just wanted to help you and they had to call you out because you got out of hand and they know you would feel the same if you were in their shoes. I believe this is called discernment. I have never known the patience I have witnessed in all of you who have been helping me and just loving on me :) There are days when I am down in the dumps and feeling that weird depressed feeling that I am sure all of you feel from time to time...you don't really know what's wrong, but in a sense you do......and just from that confusion you seem to take it out on the people who love you most. Why do we do that? I don't know. I think that we will all continue to grow as long as we trust that the Lord has nothing but good intentions for us....after all He did give His only Son to save us. To also put people in our lives that will love us no matter what......and give us these things that we never deserve! What an amazing God!!! So...the purpose of this post is to say thank you to my awesome roommate and to share with you all my grumpy moments as well as my happy moments :) So there you have it...the grumpy me has come and gone. Back to just being plain old funny, doofy, weird me :) Shelly likes that better than grumpy me....I like that better too!