What Now?

I always find myself wanting to write a blog post when I'm driving in my car and the Lord speaks to me. Though, so many distractions hit me from the time I get out of my car to the time I walk up to the steps of my front door. What a way to keep my heart closed. To keep the things that are going on in my life bottled up.

Well, tonight I had the opportunity to not have those distractions that come my way. And if I did, it wasn't too noticeable. So here we are once again and I still have lots to share. Here goes....

Recently, it has been bothering me much more than normal that Sean and I have not been able to conceive a child. You hear everyone say,"it'll happen when you least expect it." or, "just don't think about it or just forget it and it will happen." There are so many words I have for everyone the moment I hear those things. However, I just nod and agree. Most times, I just stop talking and just tell myself that they are only trying to help. I say a quick prayer and the Lord helps to ease my heart and my mind for the time I allow him to do so. Then, my heart aches a while later. When I least expect it, I will experience heartache. Heartache for something Sean and I both desire so much to have. Other friends console me with scripture and prayer. Even those who workout with me and help to ease my mind as I do all I can to lose weight, eat right, and stay fit.

Thank you, Lord for these friends in my life!

My family always makes me laugh or gives me words of wisdom or encouragement.

Thank you, Lord for my family!

Then, there's my beautiful husband. The man who cries with me when I am crying and prays over me when he knows only the Lord can console my heart. He even makes me laugh like no one else ever could.

Thank you, Lord for the man you have blessed me with!

A good friend told me to count the blessing before grieving over the unanswered prayers. I have been doing this. It does help. It even brightens my day each time I do this.

I have found that it is just something that I will have to go through as there is a reason for everything. While we cannot understand and we may never get an answer, it is what it is. Doesn't mean God has forgotten us and it never means that God has not heard our prayers. It just means he has another plan that you do not know of.

I also said to my friend, "I just want Jesus to come down and have a cup of coffee with me and answer a few things." Oh wouldn't we all?

I guess what I needed was to just get out some of the heartache, so I can move on and just keep giving God the glory for all he has done. Give him the pain that I know he can turn into joy. Most of all, give him the praise that he deserves for the sacrifice he has made.

So, what now?

We go on, do what the Lord has placed us here to do.... love and love like Christ, praise and even in the midst of our pain, we praise. Not forsaking one moment he has given us to share with those who have not known his love and those who are grieving themselves.

In Acts 16, Paul and Silas had been beaten half to death and thrown into prison. They didn't know what was going to happen to them. They just knew that they loved God. They gave God the praises. They worshiped God in the midst of so much pain. Everyone in the prison yard and guards heard their praises..... and then their chains came loose.

Paul and Silas lived out their love for God and others saw, heard and were captivated. Isn't that something to live up to? I think so.

There's the answer.

Thanks for reading.....