Some Recent Changes and Updates

 

It’s been about 2 months since my last post. And it has been a hectic two months. I have certainly kept busy. Sean and I have been working on us and with the help of the grandparents, we have been able to go on some dates. This is essential to relationships thriving, by the way. Luke is about to wrap up his 1^st Grade year and venture into 2^nd grader status in a few more months. William turned 1. He is moving and shaking. Sean and I are proud of our little guys. They’re teaching us a lot. As an older mother of younger children, I am exhausted. However, I don’t think I would want it any other way. I have this admiration for our boys, for their tenderness, and even for their stubbornness. If we truly look into the beauty of each moment, even the most trying when it comes to our children, gosh they are the most amazing teachers and influencers. I don’t say this to gloat about my children. I say it because we have a unique position as parents. It’s a front row to the all of the ugly, beauty, sorrow, and delight. And I am honored, terrified, anxious, and in love with the idea. It’s a definite recipe for therapy, I can tell you that much. Lol

Since Staci’s passing, I have worked through many things I knew were necessary to start healing. I still struggle. There’s an infinite time limit on grief. It doesn’t go away. So, I allow myself to feel, cry, grieve, and reconnect. If it weren’t for a few people who allowed me to grieve in their presence and process, I honestly do not know where I would be. My own therapeutic journey has also been a beautiful one. Therapy is good. And I don’t just say that because I’m a therapist. I say it because I benefit from being held accountable on the things I name and discuss. It’s important. So. Very. Important.

I did much soul searching over the past few weeks. This stems from where I want to be professionally that honors not only my sister, but myself. How do I see my experiences, knowledge, schooling, upbringing, and legacy play out within this life I am given? This thought with a few other factors are what led me back to where I initially left to grow.

I love where I have been the past year. I have learned more about myself than I expected. It was a journey I did not expect to take at all. However, it has been a necessary stepping stone to where my next journey begins. In a very different capacity. While I don’t have expectations just yet, I know I will, and I am excited about these. When I say expectations, I am speaking about expectations for myself. I no longer have expectations from a place of employment other than ethical standards, policy, and respect. These are no longer things I tolerate when it pertains to a place I work. However, the growth in the past few years here is one that contains self-respect and boundaries that can be expressed in a manner worthy of my experiences, upbringing, education, and knowledge. We have to covet these things we learn and maintain them in a healthy way, with proper composure.

So, I am honoring that by returning to Orange County, NY and working as a therapist in the locations I loved working within many other roles. I am excited about this next chapter. I am eager to see where it leads me. I am happy to be closer to home and be present with my family. I will be joining some old faces and places while meeting new challenges and people, learning from those I admire, and putting much of the love back into the areas that feel unloved.

I will miss Scarsdale, NY. The school, the community, and my coworkers. I have learned so much from these extremely talented, loving peers. I did not think the impact would be so great in such a short time period. But here we are, nonetheless.

May you all take a moment to reconnect with your roots, and know that you have the power to impact others in unimaginable ways for good. In a world where connection and love seem so lost, there is still time. There are still possibilities. There is still work to be done.

I am still a work in progress, but aren’t we all? To be continued…. With Love & Grace - Patti

PS - Enjoy recent pictures of my lovelies. My hubs, Sean, My oldest, Luke, and the (not so much baby anymore) baby we didn't realize we needed to complete us, William :)